Aug 112008
 

Someone (catfantastic maybe? I can’t remember) asked in the comments about the use of the word, “Morningstar” (or Morning Star)… saying they thought it was a term ascribed to satan.

The phrase comes from Revelation 22:6:

“I, Jesus, have sent My angel to testify to you these things in the churches. I am the Root and the Offspring of David, the Bright and Morning Star.”

There’s some confusion because in Isaiah 14, lucifer is alluded to as the morning star. Here’s a site with some information to prayerfully investigate: http://www.ccg.org/english/s/p223.html — I say prayerfully investigate because I’ve not taken the time to see if they’re 100% right. I skimmed it and it’s interesting information, but I’m not sure that a) it’s all correct or that b) it answers the question fully… need more time to look myself!

 

I’m going to try to write a play-by-play of our weekend. In this post, I’ll write about our experiences at the revival meeting in Charlotte (well, really Fort Mill, SC but most everyone CALLS it Charlotte!)… and in the next I’ll tell of the miracle God did in keeping my daughter and her friends alive and uninjured in a serious car wreck.

If you want to read something REALLY cool, scroll down to the heading, “A Visit From Jesus”. :D

ARRIVAL

Thursday morning we packed up and headed down to Charlotte. Our hotel (Best Western Carowinds) was quite nice. They let us check in early. We got a bite to eat and headed over to Morningstar fairly early. We’d never been there before, so we drove around and saw the big field where Friday’s meeting would be, and sort of self-toured their campus.

I’d heard that Morningstar had bought the old PTL (Jim Bakker) campus, but since the whole PTL thing blew up years before I cared about what Christians did, I didn’t know about it. They sunk bazillions of dollars into the place, and apparently even though it was opulent, some of the workmanship was shoddy – especially on the high-rise apartment building that’s going in right next to the church (which meets in the former lobby of the big hotel). Opulent doesn’t even describe the hotel/indoor mall/church… it looks like something out of a fairy tale (and yes, there IS a castle on the premises too – but it seems to be boarded up for now.) Morningstar bought it for 1.6 million in terrible disrepair, and they’ve been fixing it up ever since. It seemed to us that where they were able to preserve the beauty of the place inexpensively, they’ve done so – but where that would cost too much they’ve opted for plainer and more practical.

PARTNER’S MEETING

After we registered for the partner’s meeting, we ate a nice and inexpensive lunch in the church’s Missions Cafe, then wandered through the bookstore and such. While we were eating, we got to say a quick hello to Rick Joyner. I gained a lot of respect for him over the two days we were there. Many senior pastors of important ministries expect everyone else to do the work, and the pastor expects to sit in the air conditioning and get the glory for it. Rick was out there talking with team members, making sure they had what they needed… and on Friday he was out driving a golf cart around working!!

Eventually we bought a book and got in the book-signing line. I highly recommend that everyone read Todd’s latest book – The Reality of the Supernatural World. He signed it for us, and chit-chatted, and shook our hands. I do admit that it’s nice to know that it’s possible to be touched by Todd Bentley and NOT end up on the floor!!

The partner’s meeting was nice. We weren’t sure what to expect. They talked a lot about the work in Uganda, especially with the child soldiers (made me cry!) and they took up an offering, of which 100% of it goes to that work.

IMPARTATION

Afterward, we had a healing/impartation prayer line. This time when Todd touched me I went out on the floor (most folks did) and I had an experience with God that was just incredible. I could feel the heavy weighty kabod glory of God, and peace and warmth and love flowing through me. I just lay there for a long time, just drinking in His presence. After it was over, no one wanted to leave!!

FRIDAY’S REVIVAL SERVICE

On Friday, we got up and found the Starbucks :D We eventually made our way over to Morningstar. It was a big open field, but fortunately the main building was open and air conditioned, so before the service started at 5, we were able to go in and rest a bit. We sure got sunburned! :) But interestingly the sunburn doesn’t hurt…

CARNIVAL?

I’m sure a lot of people who see it on GodTV or youtube will say, “It had a festival (or carnival) atmosphere”. Well, sure. If you get a coupla thousand people together in a big open field, and make sure their needs are met, it’s going look like the county fair minus the rides. People need to potty – and so there were portapotties everywhere. People need to eat, and drink, and so there were food vendors (most of which were reasonably priced!). People also brought in coolers with dinner and bottled water. Since it was in a field, most people brought lawn chairs or blankets to sit on. People want to buy stuff, so the bookstore had a tent with books and t-shirts and such. Music or video was playing. Was it a festival? Yes!

One neat thing is that it was 08-08-08 and it was 88 degrees (the temp dropped 10 degrees between Thursday and Friday — THANK GOD!!). Still hot but not enough to really cause trouble.

The worship was great, but it was a little difficult for us to get into because we didn’t know ANY of the songs. The musicians were fabulous, and we did pick up on the choruses of a few songs along the way. So, we just had to determine to worship the Lord despite that. :) It was good dancin’ music!!

A VISIT FROM JESUS

The first highlight of my evening was when Todd announced that they were going to have a special commissioning for ministry prayer for people ages 25-40. Bob Jones had given a prophetic word prior to the meeting about a “new breed” of Christians – which I took to mean the younger generation rising up and really believing in, and acting upon, God’s Word.

So I stood up along with hundreds and hundreds of others, and Todd prayed over us all. Mid-prayer I suddenly couldn’t really hear him any more. It’s not like I went deaf – it’s more that my focus changed and his voice became part of the background noise.

I had my eyes closed and my hands raised and I was praying to receive everything that God wanted to give me.

Suddenly my eyes were filled with light, and out of that light I saw Jesus coming toward me. I was filled with awe and holy fear and anticipation all at once. I started crying, because I could feel His love for me. He stretched out His hand (I saw the scars!!) and He touched each of my hands, and my forehead. I very nearly fell out on the ground!! Then He was gone from my vision…

I’m not sure how to describe what I felt in those moments, except that after He had gone from my vision I could sense His presence in a greater way than I ever could before. For me, that’s really saying something, because the instant I was saved I could feel Him there with me, and that sense of Him has been growing ever since. And yet Friday that grew so much more that… wow.

I also had a literal sense of commissioning, and a confidence in God and in His ability to use me, to strategically position me, to speak through me.

I’m sure the heresy hunters will have a field day with my vision of Jesus… oh well. I think I’m going to make a heresy-hunter-hunter’s site this afternoon :D They need to get over themselves and read the book of Acts. They might even get saved…

RAIN

At one point, Todd brought up a young man from the Morningstar school (they’ve got a K-12 school there apparently). He and several friends had been to Lakeland, got some, brought it back and kicked off revival services there – they’ve got meetings 6 nights a week! That was one on-fire kid!! During the offering, they played a video of revival services there… WOW. People giving glory to God and burning with passion for Him – healings and miracles – and twice, rain… you could see on the video that literally drops of liquid were forming out of thin air and falling from above. It was WILD!!

HEALING

Todd started to call out words of knowledge. One was for a pain in the side, which Ken’s had for months. He reports that it’s gone. There were several dramatic healings that night.

MINISTRY

When we sat down, a mom and daughter sat next to us. It was obvious that both had health problems, and that the daughter had some muscle problems. She didn’t move right, speak right, etc. God spoke to me, “crack cocaine”, torment, and the name Ashley, and several other things. We planned on praying for both of them during the healing ministry, but late in the evening the daughter took off. The mom told us she was laying down in the car, feeling really awful. So we prayed with the mom (who’s on dialysis), and went out to the car. We prayed with the daughter, confirmed the accuracy of those words of knowledge, counseled her about unforgiveness and a few other things, and ended up going out for a late-night dinner with them. Lovely people. It’s hard for me, when I do God-encounter ministry like that, because it’s rare that I find out what happened afterward. They’ve got our phone number, maybe they’ll call us one day.

CAR WRECK

We were just about to pay and leave the restaurant when my cell phone rang. Why would Kayti be calling after midnight? I answered and she burst into tears. She’d just had a car wreck… and I’ll continue about that in my next post.

 

This morning, God led me to the following in Matthew 11 (emphasis mine):

15 He who has ears to hear, let him hear!

16 But to what shall I liken this generation? It is like children sitting in the marketplaces and calling to their companions, 17 and saying: ‘We played the flute for you, And you did not dance; We mourned to you, And you did not lament.’ 18 For John came neither eating nor drinking, and they say, ‘He has a demon.’ 19 The Son of Man came eating and drinking, and they say, ‘Look, a glutton and a winebibber, a friend of tax collectors and sinners!’ But wisdom is justified by her children.”

20 Then He began to rebuke the cities in which most of His mighty works had been done, because they did not repent: 21 “Woe to you, Chorazin! Woe to you, Bethsaida! For if the mighty works which were done in you had been done in Tyre and Sidon, they would have repented long ago in sackcloth and ashes. 22 But I say to you, it will be more tolerable for Tyre and Sidon in the day of judgment than for you. 23 And you, Capernaum, who are exalted to heaven, will be brought down to Hades; for if the mighty works which were done in you had been done in Sodom, it would have remained until this day. 24 But I say to you that it shall be more tolerable for the land of Sodom in the day of judgment than for you.”

 

I finally finished reading the book of Revelation (and thus the whole Bible). I ran across a passage that took me by surprise:

“And I fell at his feet to worship him. But he said to me, “See that you do not do that! I am your fellow servant, and of your brethren who have the testimony of Jesus. Worship God! For the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy.”

I’d always assumed that the principals in Revelation were Jesus and angels and John. There’s no real lead-in to this verse, so it would be safe to assume that the “he” is one of the angels who’s spoken to John throughout the Book. Except that while angels might be called our fellow servants, I can think of any verses that describe them as our brethren, and they wonder at our salvation so I don’t think they “have the testimony of Jesus” in the way we do.

So, who was John talking to?

Oh, and another question. This one mostly for Ron, since he’s got a problem with Christians talking to people who’ve died. Who are the 24 elders mentioned in the book of Revelation? Who were the great multitude he heard crying out praise to God? How about the martyrs he heard speaking? So was John as demon-possessed as Todd Bentley? :)

 

Several people have questioned my stance on faith/belief and healing, and so before I go out today I wanted to briefly address some primary reasons people are not healed.

#1 is lack of faith.

Somebody’s going to come along and say, “Yeah, well what about praying for unsaved loved ones?” It’s true that God sometimes does miracles, even healings, in the lives of unsaved people. Someone else will say, “What about the folks in the Bible who didn’t have faith to be healed?”

I think that God holds people responsible for the measure of faith they SHOULD have – for someone who’s known Him a long time, that will be much greater than someone who has no idea who Jesus is. I don’t think the man in Acts 4 who was healed outside the temple had one iota of faith – he wanted money. His mind wasn’t on healing. But the Bible also says that in one town, Jesus couldn’t do many healings because the people lacked faith. Since they’d seen His ministry before, I’m guessing that they should have had it.

#2 is lack of belief.

I maintain there’s a difference between faith and belief, and our lack of belief that God WILL do something greatly hampers us. You can read more about it in this recent post.

That said… faith/belief are not the ONLY reasons why a person is not healed.

#3 is that healing is not what is needed.

Before I was saved, I went quite nearly deaf. It started in my teens and was a very very slow process up until the year before I came to Christ, during which time I went from fully-functioning, occasionally annoyed to “gosh! I really can’t hear a thing!” The doctor actually advised me to learn sign language in case I went completely deaf. Their theory is that I had an autoimmune disorder.

Shortly after I was saved, the Lord led me through deliverance – I quite literally cast out the demons that I’d asked to live inside me as a pagan. (Here’s a testimony-related post, and my testimony itself). When I was done telling the demons to go in Jesus’ name – I could hear again, instantly. Not only that, but my restored hearing tests out better than most people’s.

What had manifested as a medical problem was really a spiritual problem.

I’ve heard others with similar testimonies – that they had anything from high blood pressure to blindness to cancer – and when the demons were cast out, the disease instantly went too – often without being prayed for or mentioned by name.

#4 is that healing is not the FIRST thing that is needed.

I also know of testimonies (including some first-hand experience in praying for others) of people who’d prayed and prayed for years for healing. Nothing happened.

Someone prayed for either a generational curse to be broken, or for “inner” healing (emotional baggage), or even for a curse or spell to be broken.

I used to not believe much in that stuff, but quite honestly I’ve seen enough that I’ve gone from total unbelief to wondering to believing that, at least sometimes, this stuff needs to be broken off before we can receive healing. Why? I don’t know exactly – I just know that I’ve talked face to face with people and seen for myself that years of devastating illness only came to an end after this sort of prayer.

#5 is closely related to #4 – there is a barrier to healing: sin.

Sin – especially the sin of unforgiveness – seems to be a barrier to receiving healing from God. I’m not implying that a Christian is capable of living a perfect, sinless life… I am however saying that if we’ve got ongoing sin issues that we’re unwilling to put under the Blood, then we’ve got no business expecting God to take care of us. Sometimes He might (He knows best) – but to trample grace yet expect it is the height of arrogance.

Likewise, unforgiveness of others keeps us from enjoying relationship with the One who forgives us.

#6 is that we really aren’t willing to accept the changes that healing will bring.

Get this – if you’re sick, you’ve got rest, sympathy, less responsibility… if you’re well, you’ve got work, expectations to fulfill, and more responsibility.

If you’re sick with a cold, you might not REALLY want instantaneous healing because you surely could use a day off to sit and watch soap operas and pamper yourself.

If you’ve been sick for a very long time, as I was, you might not REALLY want instantaneous healing because you’d very suddenly be ushered back into the “real” world where people have the right to expect things of you because you’re suddenly capable of doing those things.

Don’t believe it’s a big adjustment? I’ll talk about that sometime. It was HUGE. And I think that those factors may keep people from being healed. They’ve grown comfortable, in a way (sort of like an abused spouse?) with the status quo and are afraid of changing it.

That’s NOT to say they’re lazy and want to stay sick so they can stay lazy. I’ve yet to meet a person like that. But I’ve also yet to meet someone who doesn’t need to make themselves ready in their hearts for these changes. I’ve definitely met a few who weren’t willing to accept them, and thus have not been healed.

I also know some non-Christians who I think were not healed because they acknowledged before prayer that they were not ready to accept Jesus, and if He healed them they’d HAVE to accept He’s real, and they did not want to face that possibility.

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I’m sure that this isn’t every reason why a person is not healed – but it does offer some answers that aren’t immediately connected to “faith”.

Sorry this is “short” – I may come back, flesh it out, add Scripture when I’ve got time to look it up. Right now I need to finish laundry, take out the trash and the dog, and shower and dress as we’ve got a church member in hospital and I need to go up there this morning.

Kay Sharpe


I'm a laid-down lover of Jesus Christ. I write about my King and His Kingdom, the Bible, revival, healing, prophecy, faith, and more... plus I throw in recipes, tips, news and politics items, reviews, and all sorts of random things just for fun. Until recently, I was known as "Kathi"... but my name is now Kay. It's a good, God thing... :) The opinions expressed in this blog are mine and mine only - not necessarily shared by my husband, our church, my employers, or anyone else.

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